Sunday, February 22, 2009
Motherhood and the College Freshman
The photo above is my daughter. She is now a college freshman.She also has the flu!I'm still waking at night worrying about her,wondering whether she needs more medicine or possibly more water.I'm still frantically pacing the floor wondering if this is going to throw her into a major asthma attack. Forever the worrier. The BIGGEST problem is she's not even here at home with me. She's in her dorm room, 3 hours away, going through this alone-WITHOUT ME! This is the first time she's been this sick without her mommy to care for her. I'm not sure if it's bothering her as much as it's bothering me, but I feel helpless. I've talked to her several times a day (which I usually do, even when she's healthy) but she sounds so "small" now. She sounds like she needs me and I'm not there. Of course, she'd never admit that she wants me to take care of her.She's trying to be the independent college kid who's all grown up.
What she doesn't understand is that moms NEVER grow out of being a MOTHER! I dont' think we ever stop worrying about our kids, no matter how old. We always want to
take care of them, comfort them, BABY them. I know she can probably take care of herself just as well as I can. PROBABLY! But it's always nice to have someone take care of you when you're sick. She does have a boyfriend! Who is taking care of her as well as 3 very good girlfriends on the same dorm hall as her, so she's got a support system. It's just not the same as dear old mom.
So as I patiently wait until a decent hour to call her to see how she's doing today
I saw this old photo of her when she was young & innocent and needed mommy to take care of her 24 hrs a day/7 days a week. I didn't appreciate those feelings of being wanted & needed constantly back then. Wish I had!